become who you are

The funny thing is is that he was like oh I’m not taking...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 17:32:16 -0400

The funny thing is is that he was like oh I’m not taking the bus but he took it that day!!! Shaikqvwksja

Alsoooooo I have a Vancity crewneck from him: sooo after school one day my brother come up to where...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 17:31:15 -0400

Alsoooooo I have a Vancity crewneck from him: sooo after school one day my brother come up to where I’m sitting on the bench waiting for the bus alone. He’s like do ou want this holding up the sweater. I’m like yes!! Where’d you get it an he’s like it’s Jacky’s. I’m like Ohh and my bro calls him and is like how much do you want for it and he come up and is like 60 or something and they start bargaining and he keeps looking a smiling at me and they finally settle and my bro walks down but he stays and asks if I could hold his Starbucks drink and I’m like ok sure and he puts his sweater in his bag and I Imgive the drink back and he’s like thx and we stand there and I’m like what size is it and he’s like medium don’t worry il fit and te bus came so we walked down and caught it. Next day I’m in history and I get a text saying:
Weey up EHEHHEHE cute

Ok so on Monday I was walking to history and he was at his locker and he stared at me like crazy and...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 17:27:57 -0400

Ok so on Monday I was walking to history and he was at his locker and he stared at me like crazy and also after we came out stared again. And Wednesday I was coming out of law and he was walking and stared!! And then today I was walking to my English class cuz I was at the school store working and it was the long stairway leading to the south and I saw him and his friend walking up but I just looked at my phone and then he taps me and hea like you have the same shirt as me goof!! And then I’m like oh no way! And hea like yea you goof!! And I’m like we’ll I probably got it first and he’s like nooo mee!!! And heheehhe yee!!! Ahhabahaaismasvajaia cloud 11

I don’t fuckimg get why it’s so wrong of me to get the same headphones. Bra got the same...

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:02:31 -0400

I don’t fuckimg get why it’s so wrong of me to get the same headphones. Bra got the same ones too and she says no shit about it. Im fuckimg sick of this. Why am I getting the lowerhand. Wtf those fuckers. I feel ganged up on honestly. This is another level of bullshit. Wow pretty pissed here. And it’s not like she doesn’t copy from me. The fucking anorak, the fucking headband, the fucking hat. I say nothing about it cuz it doesn’t fuckimg matter!! Seriously fuck her! Mother fucker. Ok it’s really not a fucking big deal. Honestly, ok so I got studs. WHO THE FUCK CARES! EVERYONE HAS THEM TOO. She didnt fucking invent this shit. Wtf wtf mother fucker grow the fuck up

The feeling I get wherever he’mad is indescribable. It’s as If my whole body has gone...

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 04:27:13 -0400

The feeling I get wherever he’mad is indescribable. It’s as If my whole body has gone into shock. I stiffen up and feel the tenseness of the atmosphere inside of me. As if my heart has stopped beating

My mood is up and down up and fucking down. Wtf I can’t be fucking content. Even when I try...

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 00:07:11 -0400

My mood is up and down up and fucking down. Wtf I can’t be fucking content. Even when I try and think I’m happy, my mood falls apart.

Every time I look into the mirror, I see a lost little girl looking back at me, with searching eyes....

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 16:47:32 -0400

Every time I look into the mirror, I see a lost little girl looking back at me, with searching eyes. As if she’s lost her mom, her way back. There’s so much sadness in her eyes. So much hurt and pain. It overwhelms me. She just looks back at me. And I can’t do anything for her. I just stare back, not knowing what to do. How to comfort her. How to touch her. She cries and I feel her pain. I see the pain in her face. How her lips cry out. She looks so afraid. What can I do. She feels so small. She’s so distant from me. I can’t help her. She can only cry, as I feel it. Someone please help her. She’s dying inside. The ugliness has torn her beauty and age has become her face. I keep searching for my reflection. But it’s gone. It’s been destroyed, stepped on.

In a moment, I could be gone. Away from this cruel world and sad people. I could slip into sleep and...

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 16:41:01 -0400

In a moment, I could be gone. Away from this cruel world and sad people. I could slip into sleep and never wake up. It’s so simple. There’s nothing holding me back from just leaving. Everything’s so fragile. At any moment. It could all just disappear and be gone forever..

Fucked up life fucked up mind

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 16:37:52 -0400

So it has come down to the final moments. Sadly, the schools I don’t have any interests in are my last hope. Why does the world have to be like this. It makes me sadder that I can only have options of the things I hate. Why do we live so fast? Why can’t we all just reflect sometimes and take a breather. There’s too many problems. I can’t take this.. With one letter, your future is determined. Even if your not ready or don’t know what to do, the world comes at you fast. It scares me. How one simple moment in time can determine your whole future..

in-fi-nity: Blah Blah Blah book

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 23:52:58 -0400

in-fi-nity:

Blah Blah Blah book

I just need someone to tell me it’ll somehow work out. Someone comfort me I need to talk and...

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 21:36:06 -0400

I just need someone to tell me it’ll somehow work out. Someone comfort me I need to talk and sort this out. I feel so small. Help

I tend to make forts or walls on my bed when I feel intensely destroyed. I feel protected and...

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 03:06:43 -0400

I tend to make forts or walls on my bed when I feel intensely destroyed. I feel protected and sheltered from the horribleness of the world.

i need a mutual friend who is as deep as me and as troubled. someone who wont try to come up with...

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 01:08:04 -0400

i need a mutual friend who is as deep as me and as troubled. someone who wont try to come up with excuses when im sad. i just need someone who wont try to give me advice or tell me everythings gonna be fine. ive heard it all before. i just need someone who will listen and cry with me. be a shoulder. someone who feels the pain as me. who doesnt feel sorry for me but someone who feels it with me.

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Tue, 20 Mar 2012 00:54:01 -0400

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- i have periods of time where i just need to be left alone. this is common for me. it happens when i feel so useless and helpless that all that could save me is me. i need to refuel and recollect my priorities. its hard to understand to many people, but i crave solitude.

okay so i have a problem. i hate when people get mad because i dont wanna meet up or i wanna spend...

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 00:33:36 -0400

okay so i have a problem. i hate when people get mad because i dont wanna meet up or i wanna spend time alone. seriously? just chill the fuck out. i need air. leave me alone for awhile. im so fucked up and being around people clearly dont help. so i just want to be alone. why cant people get that. im just so tired. i just want to live by myself at the moment. so please dont be pissed at me. everyone goes through it. respect fucking boundaries. its not always about you. i just need to clear my head. i feel so confused. i just need time.

I have a problem of forcing things to happen. Why can’t I just wait and be patient… I...

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 15:16:48 -0400

I have a problem of forcing things to happen. Why can’t I just wait and be patient… I should keep in mind that it’ll happen if its meant to be. Cheesy as that sounds, it’s right. You just gotta put yourself out there and hope to be recognized.

I just feel so screwed up all the time

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 15:34:16 -0400

I just feel so screwed up all the time

mintfreshhhh: Ahhhhhhh Mexicooo.. i swear time stops when your...

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 00:55:10 -0400

mintfreshhhh:

Ahhhhhhh Mexicooo.. i swear time stops when your here.

I know if I don’t say this now, I’ll regret it. So you were the first person I felt...

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 23:37:00 -0400

I know if I don’t say this now, I’ll regret it.

So you were the first person I felt comfortable with. I could be myself and the silences weren’t awkward. But somehow, I managed to push you away. And I’m sorry. Because I know that we had a great friendship. I still don’t know what happened between us but I guess we should be moving on. Truth is, I’ve kinda missed you.. and always will. I know this is kinda cheesy.. But I just wanted to let you know that you were really special to me. I still think back to the time where we first met. hahaa. And hanging out at metro for the first time. All our nicknames ahaha. Good times. I think

People say I’m an all rounded person. But the truth is, I’m really not. Yes, I befriend...

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 22:52:17 -0400

People say I’m an all rounded person. But the truth is, I’m really not. Yes, I befriend many people. But I think its just because I’m just searching for someone who is right for me. I’ve never found one who understands me. Everyone sees me as a happy go lucky person. They ask me why I’m always smiling. They see me as that. That’s my image. But I’m only human. I need to cry. I get sad. But I can never show that. Or even know how to. I’m always the talker, the laugher. Its not because I actually am. Its just all i know. They don’t see how badly I break down when alone. No one sees me.