Alsoooooo I have a Vancity crewneck from him: sooo after school one day my brother come up to where I’m sitting on the bench waiting for the bus alone. He’s like do ou want this holding up the sweater. I’m like yes!! Where’d you get it an he’s like it’s Jacky’s. I’m like Ohh and my bro calls him and is like how much do you want for it and he come up and is like 60 or something and they start bargaining and he keeps looking a smiling at me and they finally settle and my bro walks down but he stays and asks if I could hold his Starbucks drink and I’m like ok sure and he puts his sweater in his bag and I Imgive the drink back and he’s like thx and we stand there and I’m like what size is it and he’s like medium don’t worry il fit and te bus came so we walked down and caught it. Next day I’m in history and I get a text saying:
Weey up EHEHHEHE cute
Ok so on Monday I was walking to history and he was at his locker and he stared at me like crazy and also after we came out stared again. And Wednesday I was coming out of law and he was walking and stared!! And then today I was walking to my English class cuz I was at the school store working and it was the long stairway leading to the south and I saw him and his friend walking up but I just looked at my phone and then he taps me and hea like you have the same shirt as me goof!! And then I’m like oh no way! And hea like yea you goof!! And I’m like we’ll I probably got it first and he’s like nooo mee!!! And heheehhe yee!!! Ahhabahaaismasvajaia cloud 11
I don’t fuckimg get why it’s so wrong of me to get the same headphones. Bra got the same ones too and she says no shit about it. Im fuckimg sick of this. Why am I getting the lowerhand. Wtf those fuckers. I feel ganged up on honestly. This is another level of bullshit. Wow pretty pissed here. And it’s not like she doesn’t copy from me. The fucking anorak, the fucking headband, the fucking hat. I say nothing about it cuz it doesn’t fuckimg matter!! Seriously fuck her! Mother fucker. Ok it’s really not a fucking big deal. Honestly, ok so I got studs. WHO THE FUCK CARES! EVERYONE HAS THEM TOO. She didnt fucking invent this shit. Wtf wtf mother fucker grow the fuck up
The feeling I get wherever he’mad is indescribable. It’s as If my whole body has gone into shock. I stiffen up and feel the tenseness of the atmosphere inside of me. As if my heart has stopped beating
My mood is up and down up and fucking down. Wtf I can’t be fucking content. Even when I try and think I’m happy, my mood falls apart.
Every time I look into the mirror, I see a lost little girl looking back at me, with searching eyes. As if she’s lost her mom, her way back. There’s so much sadness in her eyes. So much hurt and pain. It overwhelms me. She just looks back at me. And I can’t do anything for her. I just stare back, not knowing what to do. How to comfort her. How to touch her. She cries and I feel her pain. I see the pain in her face. How her lips cry out. She looks so afraid. What can I do. She feels so small. She’s so distant from me. I can’t help her. She can only cry, as I feel it. Someone please help her. She’s dying inside. The ugliness has torn her beauty and age has become her face. I keep searching for my reflection. But it’s gone. It’s been destroyed, stepped on.
In a moment, I could be gone. Away from this cruel world and sad people. I could slip into sleep and never wake up. It’s so simple. There’s nothing holding me back from just leaving. Everything’s so fragile. At any moment. It could all just disappear and be gone forever..
So it has come down to the final moments. Sadly, the schools I don’t have any interests in are my last hope. Why does the world have to be like this. It makes me sadder that I can only have options of the things I hate. Why do we live so fast? Why can’t we all just reflect sometimes and take a breather. There’s too many problems. I can’t take this.. With one letter, your future is determined. Even if your not ready or don’t know what to do, the world comes at you fast. It scares me. How one simple moment in time can determine your whole future..